today

Starting the day full of stress, thinking all night while sleeping, dream about how to tell your advisor that you are going to drop the course, walking up late...
couldn't find my advisor, so I just stop thinking about it...
it is not important at all...

Fear

We all have fear and have faced it from the time we have born. I am scared... this life scares me...

There are things in the world that you should get the control of them. The first thing is you! yourself!

The one who is lost...

I feel being lost. The research is going nowhere and I am becoming more and more confused... I see no payoff and I see how it needs hard works...
I just wanna go home.... This is too hard for a person like me. I cannot do it anymore, I am an engineer. I cannot be a mathematician.

Pretend!

Some times you should have more self respect for yourself. Maybe you should have respect for your work to feel better about it. Some times when you compare your work to others, you might feel that it is not as the same quality. But, be careful! there are a lot of people in the world who are good at pretending! They show off, but, you shouldn't believe them.
JUST believe in yourself! you are doing great!
KEEP TRYING :)

Test

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Old be loved

I am falling again, for my old love, Math! Oh god I forget how mad I was about him... my dear math :) my oldest friend from highschool. First love is always the best love!

alone

حالم بد است... از تحلیل کردن زیاد خسته شده ام، از تحلیل شنیدن زیاد هم...
درست است که اینترنت باعث شده از دو ور دنیا صحبت کنیم اما دلیل نمی شود که زندگی ام را از راه به آن دوری اینقدر حق به جانب تحلیل کنند...
انتقاد شنیدن سخت است همیشه، کسانی که از روی دلسوزی انتقاد می کنند هم کم اند همواره. این ها را می فهمم... اصلا حتی بحث من سر درست بودن یا نبودن حرفشان نیست...
احساس کمبود محبت می کنم به شدت. اینجا محبتی که از محیط می گیریم مینیموم است. آدم ها آنقدر با هم کاری ندارند، آنقدر ها یکدیگر را آنالیز نمی کنند...
دوستان صمیمی، خسته ام از انتقاد شنیدن...
دلم می خواهد یکی را بغل کنم و گریه کنم...
هیچ کس نیست...

The one with the paper and dance

I am waiting in YMCA for my waltz class! by the way, I have a deadline on Feb15th! This is my first paper... I don't know why I am like this!!! too relaxed! too calm, just doing my everyday life...
Actually I should be excited right now and should feel under pressure but I am ok! I feel that everything is gonna be fine...

rules of being a good student!

1. Go to all of the lectures

• Make sure you are understanding all of the concepts (Ask the professor during the lecture or after the class)
• Go to the office hours and ask question!
• participate in the class and answer the question professor asks.
• make friends at the class to check your homework!

2. Do your homework your self! check answers before you turn them in!

• go to the TA's office hour and ask question.
• Find the solutions and make sure that all of your answers are correct.

3. Study all the notes and also the textbook. Make sure to understand all the parts!

4.Solve a lot of problems before the midterm and final exam!

5. Study gradually! Don't put it aside until the exam night!

6. Do your best. leave the rest!

P.S: I am not a good student at all! But I know what to do! I just know how to complement all what I do! If I don't do them and do the oposits I will be a good student like this :D

Pissed off

I am totally pissed off now, I really need help! Having a meeting with my advisor after a month! that was horrible! I am ...
I don't know how many times that story should be repeated! It has always been the same!
YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH :(((((

racism...

I just think that what is the first impressions that I think about a new person that I meet...

The first thing that I didn't know is that I am racist! It really matters the nationality... I really hate to regret it but I am a racist!
The other thing is the way the person speaks or dressed!

Do it anyway

Just do it everyday... a little bit is enough...
I just feel a little bit disappointed...
I don't know why, I only need to try more!