Stress

I hate it when I have stress!
I am under pressure now because of the final exams. I have never been like this before. I used to be the calmest person between all of my friends, I don't know why I am like this now. It's because of the fact that I expect too much...
Days are passing so fast, I cannot follow them. Sometimes I give up running, I just stop somewhere and stare. I stare at people, the ones who pass through the streets, the ones who are studying at library, the ones who love each other...
I am alone and actually I enjoy my loneliness. I shared my loneliness before, but it was not the right time for both of us. We were like each other, two alone people; we both wanted to know how does it look like if we put us together. Actually it seems great! The problem was that we couldn't hold it if we go through that way. We were looking for the same thing in life and that thing can be achieved only by living separately...
Talking about him moves my stresses away. But I need to make things work! I need encouragement... .

You Leaved, Now Live...

Live Live Live, not in the imaginary world! Live in real world! It might be counter intuitive at first sight! Even for you, but the most gain is in real world...is achieved by cooperation with others...with sharing opinions, feelings...
Leave your imagination and live in real world... It's Your LIFE! Your CHOICE!

Research world

Being in a new world, exploring it and find that other people had this journey before...They have constructed a world here and I am an explorer! an alone one... but I like being alone, this comes from the philosophy that I had before... acting like a God! being Creator of your own world and sometimes allow others to see this world... This is where I am...
I cannot believe myself, the rate of changes is extremely high! I like it this way. This shows me who I am actually...
I love myself when I act like this!
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PS: I am still worried about my research. Writing is the hardest thing in the world for me. I am a total disable! I cannot write anything! But! I am the one who can fight! who can learn and that's why I am trying so hard to fight the huge monsters in my life! one of them is the writing!
I am going to publish a journal paper soon, I promise myself :D

My Problem!

I am worried about my research, about the way I am trying to find my solution. I don't know if I am going in the right direction. The problem is that I read a lot of things and I am confused now. I don't know if it will ends up in a paper. I don't want to waste my time on this problem if it is not going anywhere. Should I trust my advisor?
She told me that people haven't done that much on this problem but I think she's wrong. there are a lot of paper. But do we have any clear solution? I don't think so... I should re-search it ;)

unconscious

When every thing in my life become hard and they make me cry. I have a strong feeling inside, which restricts my behavior I cannot cry when I am conscious . Sometimes I cry in my sleep... Unconsciously
That really hurts...

You

Now, this is me and all I have is my words... I don't know how can I say "word" in a better way. My words are not enough to describe it...
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Sometimes when I am walking home I hear the sound of "Anathema" in my head... "I feel you! I don't know how,I don't know why I see you..."
but there is a problem! Can you define that"You"... In my case, it doesn't exist yet.Yeah! you don't exist in my world... It's a matter of time and place to find that you! but now, I just feel it :D

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